Still Alice

About a very intelligent woman who is suffering alzheimer's from her genes. This movie follows her through her journey on preparing for her future days. She tried to memorize things. Work out. Playing brain games to exercise her brain. Reminders on her phone. But this disease is just cant be cured.

I love this movie because it opened up my eyes on how crazy alzheimers can be. I had a family member who suffered alzheimers. She is already dead. But it was a miserable life for her. She became a laughing stock in every family gatherings. Even her own close family hated and scared of her. They built her a cage. She drank detergent liquid. She played with her own poops. She spoke with reflections in mirror. She did many unthinkable things. And she died in a terrible condition.

I rate this movie 7 out of 10. :)

Baby

I am on a very strict diet. I am doing this out of desperation to get pregnant. You know, one month from now, we'll celebrate our first anniversary. I think it has been 5 months since we're trying to conceive. Every months, waiting for period is like a battle of hopes. But the period came anyway. Even though it's not welcomed!

I really dont know why i didnt get pregnant yet. I think i am healthy enough for a baby. I am just overweight. Not that fat i think. I am fit. I have muscles and exercise. Compared to other people who are completely obese, i think i am a better obese. lol.. My half sister is also fat and she still can get pregnant. My second cousin is fatter than me. She's also pregnant. My period is perfect. I really have no clue of what's going on inside me. But whatever it is we're trying anyway. This time i hope my emotion is stable. Hormones and everything, i hope them to be in perfect condition so the egg and sperm can meet.

Last night i had a fight with my husband. It was not even to be called a fight. But whatever. What i'm trying to say is that i am finally accepting him into my life. Even when we had a fight, i dont have that feelings of wanting a divorce anymore. I have left the past. There is no way i can go back to it. I am looking forward into the future now. Waiting for another big thing which is a baby to change my life.When i look at my husband, i see a person whom i'm gonna spend the rest of my life with. A person who is so influential and the one who has withdrawn me from the darkest pit on earth.

My Dream Life

1. Bright white house.
2. Kids.
3. Nice car.
4. An edible garden.
5. Chicken, ducks and goats.
6. Pond.
7. Swimming pool.
8. BBQ patio.

Dealing with Screaming Stubborn Kid

So today i watched this movie, Le Passe. There was a scene where this kid was screaming and on throwing tantrum. So, i thought, what would i do if he was my kid? I think of every possibilities, but looking at how critical the boy was, i concluded, hmmm, i will blackmail him. LOL.. Its very wrong. I know.

So, this guy went to the boy and close the door. He didn't let anyone enter the room except him and the boy and start slow talking with him. It worked! He asked, why and go deeper and deeper into the conversation. The boy changed 360 degree. He was calm and no more problem. So, the conclusion is:

1. NEVER BLACKMAIL YOUR KID
2. BE CALM, AND START A CONVERSATION

Bi Küçük Eylül Meselesi (A Small September Affair) Review

Finished watching this Turkish movie. Rating from IMDB is 7.5

Everything is going well In the life of a city girl called Eylul, but after an unfortunate accident she forgets the last month of her life she spent on an Island 'Bozcaada'. Incidents take place where flashbacks from the past month haunt her until she decides to visit the place to remember. Everyone around her, all her friends and family tell her not to and, despite their discouragement Eylul suspecting something is wrong. Simply by listening to her instincts Eylul goes back to Island 'Bozcaada' never knowing what to expect until a chance encounter with a strange dowdy man Tekin who call out to her 'Eylul dont you remember me? you fell in love with me on this Island".

My opinion, the movie is just too melodramatic. Its not realistic. Too much drama. So, for my taste, i just dont like it. I guess the reason why rating on IMDB is high, must be because of the ending. I must admit, the ending was amazing. But the way they drag the movie and make it such a big deal with Eylul was just exaggerated to me. And, Teki is not handsome. Sorry. :) But that's just my 2 cents. Still, its enjoyable. I'll rate it 5 only. Out of 10.

Trouble in Paradise

So last night he told me, 'I'm not happy.'

What would be your reaction when someone told you that? In my mind, i knew its about job. He told me, nobody can accept him. He cannot fit in. People look down on him. People judged him.

When we talk about this. We always go back to the time when we were chatting. We met online. After only about one week of saying hi, he already told me he wanted to marry me. And i rejected him so many times.

I dont know why but he really determined about coming here. Until later i found out, the reason was only to sleep with me for one night and to have a wife that looks chinese. He canceled his plan to migrate to canada only because of these foolish plans.

And now, 8 months later, he is in depression. Apparently the grass looks greener on the other side for him.

Lose Weight

So my husband made a stupid decision to let his friends send him home. Our house is dirty outside. Thats one thing.

When they came to pick him up, they were all jokingly asked my husband to see his wife (me). I know its funny. But it showed how much they want to see his wife. He's not only a silly man, but also, a freak. So maybe they're all wondering how do i look.

With this fat and rolls hanging on my body, i dont look presentable at all. Its just embarrassing! I am trying to lose weight. But it just doesnt seem right. I had been fasting for 3 days now and i dont lose even 1 kg. Frustrating!

Well i guess i need to really go starving!