Kimi

My childhood relative he is our second cousin. He is 10-12 years younger than me. I watched him growing up. In my head he is still that clueless little child under the protection of my grandparents. I left home when he was still at primary. So in my memory he is always wearing that school uniform. Looking away with a shy smile when our gazes locked. Last week he came to me asking for a job. I gave him the job. But i was not serious about it. I looked down on how serious he is about the job.

Sometimes there's job for him sometimes there's none. yesterday he came and i gave him rm70. Later that day i found that he went to mydin with his mother, shopping with the money i gave him. This event touched my heart like nothing else ever. How big is the meaning of rm70 for some people who has none. And how big is this motivation for him.

he came here with his bicycle asking for a job! that was so shocking! but today he wanted to hang himself. fighting over something with his mother. i somehow felt that it must be related to me. i promised to give him somthing yesterday but the pin ahsnt arrived so i didnt call. i shouldve just called and gave him somthing else instead. i always haeve it in my head but ithout action. 

20/3/2022

first time came to see me

rm50

rm30

rm100

rm70

i need to work harder so i could help him. he need to buy a phone. i saw he has plan with the garden. he bought a lorry of soil but the one that arrived is sand. anyway.. they have nothing else but that plot of land to work on. i will teach him how to open a shopee account and help him sell. one day he'll stand up on his own feet and he will sell lots of plants.