36 Weeks, Day 6

Today is the start of the hip pain. I am sure it is caused by the bone. Pelvic bone. Oh, it is so uncomfortable. Pain, yes. When i sit or if i lay down, i dont feel anything. But when i put my feet to the ground, oh nooo. My groin, my hip bone, everything comes in a package. Pressure, shooting pain. :(

Told my mother and she got panic. I know deep inside that i'm not giving birth yet. But when she gets panic like that, i doubt myself. LOL. But everything seems ok now. If baby enganged today, then most probably i will give birth in two weeks time. Around sept 5. Instead of fear, i am actually excited for it. :)

Too Rational

I am 36 weeks pregnant. Since 34 weeks, my husband and i live in distance. The first few days, he cared about me. He called me. It was obvious that he missed me. After he started living with his friends, things changed. He got caught up with works. I know he always had hard time at work. He's not as mentally strong as other men. He lose confidence easily. And easily get broken and stressed out. So, i try not to add pressure to his mind. I stay away from him when he didn't message. I never push or nag him to give attention to me. I accept the way he treats me just the way he could. I never asked for more.

It has been a few nights he disappeared without saying goodnight. But yesterday's night i think there's something going wrong in his side of the world. It's his off day tomorrow, and he disappeared. I thought he'll spend that night talking to me. Calling me or something.

So, yesterday's morning i decided to stop talking to him. I sulked. Then my phone started ringing continuously from his effort of getting back to me. I ignored. But after a few attempts i gave in. He told me his friends brought him to a bar. It's funny how honest he is. He said his friends cheated him by saying that they're going to a shopping mall. It turned out that they went to a bar. A bar full of thai girls. Guiding alcohols into their mouths. Giving them wild dance.

I was in shocked. So i cried and cried. My heart was so broken. But after a few minutes i was calm. I forgave him because he was honest. I think its not right for me to be angry since he confess it to me.

But today as i flashback into yesterday, i think i was such a fool for trying to calm myself down. To be in control of my emotions. I should've just let it go. Scream at him. Curse him. But i am soft. I easily forgive. Today i realized that i can't forget it. I want to list down all the wrong things he did yesterday so i wont forget how he took me for granted.
- He didn't reply to my messages.
- He didn't care about me who's waiting for him after such a long day at work.
- He didn't miss me.
- I was the LAST THING in his mind last night.

Am i too understanding? Am i too rational? I pity him too much that i forgive him for everything he did. He can get away with anything. In my head, i saw him as a man without family. I saw him as weak. A man who can't accept negativity. So i surround him with positivity. I never nagged him. Never asked anything from him. I never spent even 100 for myself a month from his salary. I wanted to buy cosmetics and he said dont. So i wont. I'm a very good wife. Very good to the point of an idiot.

A baby is coming into this world. And, he will come in between us. There'll be no more me and him moments. Things will change completely. Surprisingly after getting pregnant, divorce is no longer an option in my life. I want to fix this so much. But i dont know how. Maybe i should just ignore. I remembered those days before we were married. He was obsessed about me. Because i was different. I didn't care about him. I hated him. I married him out of pity and now i devote everything for him.

I love my baby more than anything. But at the same time i don't wanna lose my husband. If one day things get worse, i will stabilize myself up with a business. Get a driving license. I'll take my dowry money back from him. And i will leave him. Maybe no one will marry me anymore cos i have a kid. But living alone is better than being treated like a fool by someone you love. It's hard. But i see this coming.

I have never loved anyone the way i love him. I have a feeling that he'll hurt me one day and i'll be very broken. I should get myself ready. I am attractive. I can get men to fall in love with me. I can flirt day and night to revenge for him. Maybe one day i'll do just that.

Edge of Tomorrow Review

IMDB rating: 7.9
Synopsis: When Earth falls under attack from invincible aliens, no military unit in the world is able to beat them. Maj. William Cage (Tom Cruise), an officer who has never seen combat, is assigned to a suicide mission. Killed within moments, Cage finds himself thrown into a time loop, in which he relives the same brutal fight -- and his death -- over and over again. However, Cage's fighting skills improve with each encore, bringing him and a comrade (Emily Blunt) ever closer to defeating the aliens.

Brilliant movie! I watched it twice. Some people might think it's stupid after reading the word 'alien'. I know. I am one of that person. Alien themed movie is just too absurd for me. But wait, this is not your ordinary ridiculous alien movie. It actually didn't even care much about the alien. It's just about the major who had to die and relive again and again.

Watching this movie is like you're playing a game. You died and you got the chance to have another life over and over again. It must be inspired from a gamer's point of view. It's just brilliant. You won't get bored watching this.

The Hundred Foot Journey

I wasn't convinced when i first read the synopsis. So, i ignored it. A few days ago i read a recommendation from a blogger. She reviewed this movie and talked about how good it was. Influenced by her, i gave myself a try.

The result? Disappointment!

I should've known. Its just a melodramatic movie. Not realistic. Like a plain bollywood movie, too much unneeded dramas. IDK. Its just not my taste. Some people might like this but not me.

IMDB rating: 7.3
Synopsis: Hassan Kadam (Manish Dayal) is an extraordinarily talented and largely self-taught culinary novice. When he and his family are displaced from their native India and settle in a quaint French village, they decide to open an Indian eatery. However, Madame Mallory (Helen Mirren), the proprietress of an acclaimed restaurant just 100 feet away, strongly objects. War erupts between the two establishments, until Mallory recognizes Kadam's impressive epicurean gifts and takes him under her wing.

Home Sweet Hell Review

IMDB rating: 5.4

Don Champagne (Patrick Wilson) seems to have it all: a successful business, a perfect house, perfect kids, and a perfect wife. Unfortunately, when his wife, Mona (Katherine Heigl), learns of Don’s affair with a pretty new salesgirl (Jordana Brewster), this suburban slice of heaven spirals out of control. Don soon realizes that Mona will stop at nothing, including murder, to maintain their storybook life where “perception is everything.”

My opinion: There's something about Katherine Heigl that i think hmmm... Her acting? Her face expression. Or something i dont know. There's something about her. Or maybe it's just the character. It's just a sick movie for me. Seems like a dark comedy, but it's not even funny. It's watchable but not great.

*Oh, but i think the song was nice though. :)

If I ask a simple question
Do you promise to be true?
Swear to me you'll listen 
As I whisper this to you
How much do you love me?
How much do you care?
Spare me no details, my sweet 
My little cuddle-bear
More than the moon and the stars up above 

The Wedding Ringer Review

Socially awkward Doug Harris (Josh Gad) is two weeks from marrying the gal (Kaley Cuoco-Sweeting) of his dreams, but he has a problem: He doesn't have any groomsmen for the occasion. Desperate and running out of time, Doug calls upon Jimmy Callahan (Kevin Hart), owner and operator of Best Man Inc., a company that provides attendants for friendless grooms. As Doug tries to pull off the con, a bromance unexpectedly blossoms between Jimmy and himself.

My opinion: Very fun to watch! Not boring. The movie just keeps grabbing your attention and make your mind busy. Really fun especially on those days when you feel bored and unmotivated. :)

IMDB rating: 6.8

My Love Don't Cross That River Review

imdb rating: 7.9

Me and husband watched this on Mother's Day night. He bought some cakes for me. Very thoughtful of him. Though i know he is not like that. You know my husband might be anything but he is not romantic and he's not full of surprises.

We watched this documentary on channel News Asia. They separated this into two parts. My husband didn't watch the first one. But i did. And i cried the whooooole time. It's funny how a documentary could be that sad. Well, you know, any movies that comes from korea will make me cry. I dont know what's wrong with them all. They just know how to make me cry!

This documentary is about an elderly couple, wife (89) and the husband (98) have been married for almost all their lives. The camera follows them through the last days of their lives. You see they're so old and the age started taking effect on them. Especially the husband.

I think this documentary doesn't need synopsis or recommendation at all. You should just play it in front of you and watch. That's what i did. I had no expectation from it. But wow, how it gripped my memories and emotions, just left me speechless.

There are things they reminded me of:
1. My grandfather - during last days of his life.
2. My husband and i.

We both sobbed while watching this. He hold me from behind so i couldn't see him crying. After the movie finished, he said he wants me to die first. I was quite surprised because we always joked about this. Then he said, he doesn't want me to cry for him.

There are many scenes in this movie that could bring tears to your eyes. Mine was when the husband touched his wife's face when she was sleeping. That made me cry like crazy! Oh god, it reminded me so much of my husband and i. Actually everybody can relate to this. Being a married woman myself, And being in this state of hormones and emotions, even husband raising voice to me could make me sob.

So, my rating would be 9 out of 10. Just magnificent!