Bi Küçük Eylül Meselesi (A Small September Affair) Review

Finished watching this Turkish movie. Rating from IMDB is 7.5

Everything is going well In the life of a city girl called Eylul, but after an unfortunate accident she forgets the last month of her life she spent on an Island 'Bozcaada'. Incidents take place where flashbacks from the past month haunt her until she decides to visit the place to remember. Everyone around her, all her friends and family tell her not to and, despite their discouragement Eylul suspecting something is wrong. Simply by listening to her instincts Eylul goes back to Island 'Bozcaada' never knowing what to expect until a chance encounter with a strange dowdy man Tekin who call out to her 'Eylul dont you remember me? you fell in love with me on this Island".

My opinion, the movie is just too melodramatic. Its not realistic. Too much drama. So, for my taste, i just dont like it. I guess the reason why rating on IMDB is high, must be because of the ending. I must admit, the ending was amazing. But the way they drag the movie and make it such a big deal with Eylul was just exaggerated to me. And, Teki is not handsome. Sorry. :) But that's just my 2 cents. Still, its enjoyable. I'll rate it 5 only. Out of 10.

Trouble in Paradise

So last night he told me, 'I'm not happy.'

What would be your reaction when someone told you that? In my mind, i knew its about job. He told me, nobody can accept him. He cannot fit in. People look down on him. People judged him.

When we talk about this. We always go back to the time when we were chatting. We met online. After only about one week of saying hi, he already told me he wanted to marry me. And i rejected him so many times.

I dont know why but he really determined about coming here. Until later i found out, the reason was only to sleep with me for one night and to have a wife that looks chinese. He canceled his plan to migrate to canada only because of these foolish plans.

And now, 8 months later, he is in depression. Apparently the grass looks greener on the other side for him.

Lose Weight

So my husband made a stupid decision to let his friends send him home. Our house is dirty outside. Thats one thing.

When they came to pick him up, they were all jokingly asked my husband to see his wife (me). I know its funny. But it showed how much they want to see his wife. He's not only a silly man, but also, a freak. So maybe they're all wondering how do i look.

With this fat and rolls hanging on my body, i dont look presentable at all. Its just embarrassing! I am trying to lose weight. But it just doesnt seem right. I had been fasting for 3 days now and i dont lose even 1 kg. Frustrating!

Well i guess i need to really go starving!

My Husband is the Best

I am writing this to express my love to my husband. I know, i am a crazy woman. Sometimes i love him. The other time i hate him. Well, i'm a woman. I am made of a big bunch of hormones.

We are in trouble again. I guess. Because our car has stopped working. Well, we're always in big trouble because he has no license. And i just hate it when we are illegal like that. Anyway, the car! It stopped working!

And we need to go to mechanic to fix it. He went to the site with his friend this morning. Poor him!

This problem has started since yesterday. But after a few adjustments, the car started and he drove to the site. He came home for lunch, OK. Went back to the site, OK. But around 7 pm, he wanted to come home. The car acted up again. He fixed it. I forgot about the car problem and my head was filled with the thought of 'we have no bread at all for breakfast'. I called him to ask him to buy bread. He sounded hesitated. But i didn't understand. 30 minutes after that, he didnt arrive yet. I called. He said the car failed again. Uhhhh!!! I felt like crying. It is MY fault!

But he never said it was my fault. He kept saying it was the car's fault. When he came home, i can see how tired he looked. After dinner and shower he went right into a deep sleep.

If it happened to my previous partner. I know she will definitely be shouting at me. Blaming me and cursing me for all the troubles. But with him, its so different. He never blame me on anything. At least not at the critical moment.

I'm touched by his behaviour. :')

The Departed Movie (my thoughts)

Alright, this movie is great. 8.5 rating from IMDB. No need review anymore. Buttttttttt....... Its just weird. Because. This story is about covering/protecting Costello, right??

But what is there to protect if Costello himself is an FBI informant?? This movie is weird.

Or is it me who dont understand?

Ugh, spoiled!

**Updated:

Found THIS explanation. It does make sense to me. Now im happy with the movie. :)

Bridesmaids (2011) Movie Review

 About a woman, Annie who has a shitty life. No boyfriend, working at a jewellery shop, and has a bestfriend, Lillian. I mean real bestfriend who lives only 5 minutes away from her.

Suddenly Lillian is getting married and her life changed forever. Because, suddenly another woman also claimed to be true bestfriend to Lillian. They two suddenly become very competitive and try all their best to win Lillian's heart.

For me this is a very good movie. Every woman can relate to this. And as always, its highly recommended. :)

8 out of 10!!

Monster

Today she came and gave me three boxes of memory to me. They appeared in front of me. All the things that i used to play. All the 'miserable' years i spent there. All the bittersweet memories. I burst into tears.

Why did i do that to her?? Why????? What kind of satisfaction am i enjoying right now?

Im a horrible person. I should've died.

I am ruining the life of everyone.

Trying to Conceive

If i am infertile because of obesity, i should be fat enough that my period stopped coming - in other words, irregular cycle. But my menstrual cycle always came beautifully. No problem with that. My parents have no fertility issues. My father has 11 children (incl. half siblings) and my mother never experience miscarriage, and have 5 kids. My aunties too. No problem at all. Except my eldest auntie (mother's side) she lost, if im not mistaken, 4 kids. The reason? Sadness. She had terrible life back then.

Here, i can relate to myself. And i want to come up with a summary or conclusion of my journey. Here we go.

July: Raya month. Because i want to surprise my family with my pregnancy. But didnt work. Why? Because we didnt make love every night. And after the fertile window finished, we go back to having sex with condom.

August: We had sex every night. BUT, only within fertile window. As soon as it finished, we went back using condom.

September: We made sure to make love every night after i finished my period. So we did. Almost quarter of a month without fail. But this task made us tired, and it became a chore. Not fun. Sometimes i wasnt even wet. We thought everything was okay. But during my fertile window, we had a terrible fight. We didnt speak, i cried everyday and night. And the only thing i think about was just, divorce! But still i forced myself to continue sleeping and have sex with him, only to get pregnant. And i thought, even if we divorced, at least i have a kid. What a wicked thought! So, i am sure, this time, stress and depression has prevented me from getting pregnant.

I dont want to stop trying. We will try again as soon as i finished this cycle. And we will do it better this time. I love him. I truly love him. And i truly want his baby. Our mixed baby! I hope things will be alright. And this will be the last period for 9 months to come.

I Hate Myself

Enough is enough!!!

It has been 3 months since we tried to conceive again. I thought im already pregnant! But found out that i have my period again this morning. What the FUCK!!!

I cant put the blame to anyone but myself. I am obese! I am fat! Fats are everywhere! Its the amount of food i ate! Can you imagine how much food did i eat to build this much fat and rolls on my body??

20 kg of stupid goddamn food! I am typing with laptop on my lap, and rolls of my lower belly fat spilled out resting on my laptop. Thats how fat i am!

Enough is enough! I did this before. I lost 20 kg! And i gained 13 kg back just by eating. Im an asshole. The answer to this is hunger. Like i dont know! I know its only hunger can make me reduce my weight. So why didnt i do it???????!!!!!