Horrid People

This is how it is like everytime when i go out with my husband.

STARES

This is the state where everybody claims themselves as 'MODERN' and as 'FIRST WORLD' as their neighbour, singapore. LOL. Big LOL for you.

I have few johor friends and yep, they are very 'malay' and proud. Though the truth is they're not malay at all. Every house i went, every family i knew, every people i know, they dont have malay talk. They only categorize themselves as jawa or banjar. That's all. So, obviously they are indonesians! LOLLLLL

It's just unbelievable that they can stare at you like a fool in public areas. Like we are some kind of show. Dont you know it's RUDE to stare at people? If you think indians in INDIA are stupid and low. Then you are no better than them. You are as stupid and low as them.

LOSERSSSS

Things I'll Teach My Kids

1. Hate strangers

2. Don't trust people

3. Be arrogant

4. Be angry if somebody offends you

Discrimination in Malaysia

The greatest lesson i ever learned in my life (since i live in this discriminative country) is to live in a nice residency area. Never live in an immigrant neighbourhood.

The rent here is not only expensive, but it's full of stupid people. This is entirely not my fault. We only had 2 days to look for house. So, this was a mistake from the start. But from now on, i know how to handle this. This will never happen again.

With this amount of rent, i can rent ourselves a nice apartment with pool. With playing ground, guarded with security. We were so naive. And now we need to continue living these shitty stupid lives with these uneducated people. Sooooo, third world country!

One more, starting from now on, i will go out of my house being angry and grumpy. Nothing can come my way when i'm angry. Cos when i'm angry, i can kill.

I HATE JOHOR AND EVERYTHING IN IT

(they're just a bunch of prouds with zero iqs)

Still Alice

About a very intelligent woman who is suffering alzheimer's from her genes. This movie follows her through her journey on preparing for her future days. She tried to memorize things. Work out. Playing brain games to exercise her brain. Reminders on her phone. But this disease is just cant be cured.

I love this movie because it opened up my eyes on how crazy alzheimers can be. I had a family member who suffered alzheimers. She is already dead. But it was a miserable life for her. She became a laughing stock in every family gatherings. Even her own close family hated and scared of her. They built her a cage. She drank detergent liquid. She played with her own poops. She spoke with reflections in mirror. She did many unthinkable things. And she died in a terrible condition.

I rate this movie 7 out of 10. :)

Baby

I am on a very strict diet. I am doing this out of desperation to get pregnant. You know, one month from now, we'll celebrate our first anniversary. I think it has been 5 months since we're trying to conceive. Every months, waiting for period is like a battle of hopes. But the period came anyway. Even though it's not welcomed!

I really dont know why i didnt get pregnant yet. I think i am healthy enough for a baby. I am just overweight. Not that fat i think. I am fit. I have muscles and exercise. Compared to other people who are completely obese, i think i am a better obese. lol.. My half sister is also fat and she still can get pregnant. My second cousin is fatter than me. She's also pregnant. My period is perfect. I really have no clue of what's going on inside me. But whatever it is we're trying anyway. This time i hope my emotion is stable. Hormones and everything, i hope them to be in perfect condition so the egg and sperm can meet.

Last night i had a fight with my husband. It was not even to be called a fight. But whatever. What i'm trying to say is that i am finally accepting him into my life. Even when we had a fight, i dont have that feelings of wanting a divorce anymore. I have left the past. There is no way i can go back to it. I am looking forward into the future now. Waiting for another big thing which is a baby to change my life.When i look at my husband, i see a person whom i'm gonna spend the rest of my life with. A person who is so influential and the one who has withdrawn me from the darkest pit on earth.

My Dream Life

1. Bright white house.
2. Kids.
3. Nice car.
4. An edible garden.
5. Chicken, ducks and goats.
6. Pond.
7. Swimming pool.
8. BBQ patio.

Dealing with Screaming Stubborn Kid

So today i watched this movie, Le Passe. There was a scene where this kid was screaming and on throwing tantrum. So, i thought, what would i do if he was my kid? I think of every possibilities, but looking at how critical the boy was, i concluded, hmmm, i will blackmail him. LOL.. Its very wrong. I know.

So, this guy went to the boy and close the door. He didn't let anyone enter the room except him and the boy and start slow talking with him. It worked! He asked, why and go deeper and deeper into the conversation. The boy changed 360 degree. He was calm and no more problem. So, the conclusion is:

1. NEVER BLACKMAIL YOUR KID
2. BE CALM, AND START A CONVERSATION