homemaker brain

sipping my matcha. the i think how romantic it would be if i grind my own matcha. on a second thought, i'm gonna have to grow them myself. then steam them, dry them then grind. and then what if i am not forever healthy? what if one day i can't walk? then being a homemaker is a really scary thought cause that means you'll have to work very hard and be fit. i don't know future and i just wanna make sure that everything would be okay. even if i'm at the worst state of my being.