after the rain

That lazy morning after the rain. There’s something about the vibe. The very air that you breathe is heavy. Full of moisture. You’re feeling like you don’t wanna do anything. You touch things and you put them back. You just want to sit and be lazy. Scrolling through the Instagram which is the biggest waste of life ever! I prefer hot weather these days. Isn’t it weird? I grew up loving everything about the rain. But now it’s such a turn off for me. I prefer hot crisp weather. You can do anything in the sun. Hang your clothes. Gardening. Drink icy drinks. Walk everywhere without being worried about stepping into the mud. (In my garden)

injured left eye

Eventful day of our life. 8.30 am m was doing his electrical work. Suddenly we heard the sound ‘pop!’ Then he called honey!

I was cracking eggs in the kitchen. 5 eggs. 2 for me. 3 for them. Wanted to make tomato and eggs for their breakfast. 

I ran to the room with my rubber slippers. Thinking maybe he got caught in live wire. When i went inside, he was holding his left eye. He went outside. I saw this white spot on his iris. Like a cloud. He said he couldn’t see then he started crying.

Everybody thought he has lost his eye. At that time i said at least you still have one eye left. I said let’s go to hospital.

In the car he said i did many bad job to you. I treat you bad. I have a son. I can’t find job anymore. Then he could see light. At the hospital, doctor washed his eye then he could see his hand. 10.30 i went home to collect all our things. But 12 o’clock he said he can go home. That’s it.

Thank god. Now day 3. He could see better. Just need to constantly wash the eye and put antibiotics and medicine.

ducks and chicken

Just a quick note to tell you guys how stupid it is to grow chicken and ducks and not getting profit out of it. We got 100 something ducks they're laying eggs. But you know how much they're paying? 45 cents. Each. What the heck right!

So we're selling them all. 9.5 ringgit each. At least they'll stop sucking money from us.

eid adha

There’s a reason why I’ve always hated eid celebrations. Next year i want to go somewhere else, don’t wanna be home. 

I’m nobody when I’m home. I’m better being mysterious. Me and m is just a bad combination.

If i ever find someone again, i want someone who has same likes as me. At least we can share our ideas.

- reading (so we could talk about books together)

- business (so we would be rich together)

- travelling (so we could plan together)

- clingy (so we would always be together never part)

- cooking (so he could cook for me)

- talkative so I won’t be quiter

r broke her hand

- people would blame us cause it happened in our room

- r is stubborn, crying non stop, very spoilt

- I wasn’t there cause i cared cos if it happened to us, z won’t be as concerned. for sure.

- I neglected my own child for her child

- I wanna be away so much. Not because I don’t wanna help but because of how insignificant my presence was.

- I should prioritise a more than anything

- shouldn’t be desperate for friends like what m was aiming for. Cause r is a bad influence 

- a is a sponge and he absorbed everything he saw

- we should be away from here

- at least not together like this

- i love a more than anything in the world

- he’s so naive and when he’s around people can’t help feeling so hateful towards him cause he is so not into the situation

- he doesn’t know what’s going on. He thinks it’s okay to always be funny and smiling. 

- we should put him away from everyone. You want friends you go find them at school 

pms-ing

lately my pms is getting so out of hand. i hate talking about pms cause it's stupid and sounds like im just looking for an excuse and thats lame. but, im a woman so it is a part of me. my temper is super short and i am hot all the time. my hormone is rocketing high and i just wanna feel better.

the thing about my pms is i have almost zero tolerance with everything and i just wanna be alone by myself. today r threw one big bar on a's back. he was extreme pain when i grabbed him. my mother was not doing anything. if it was her favourite granddaughter, she'd shout at us like crazy. for sure.

random talks

GAY HOME BAKER
saw a very talented baker on ig. the way he edited his videos and his taste in photography is amazing. and im sure he can cook too. he has a good reputation on ig with many followers/ buyers. the problem is, most hiv carriers in my country are gay. how do i know if he's gay? right now he's on a vacation with male friends only and they look 100% gay to me. sooo if i could, i just want to advice people to please think twice before buying anything from him.