Declutter

Decluttered, cleaned the house. But still not happy inside. There's something about this life.

Later today I had this image of future Alex asking me about his dad.

'Is he a bad person?' he asked.

'Towards me, yes. In general, he's a very kind person. Towards you, he's an amazing dad. He loves you to death.'

'If he's an amazing dad, why did you leave him? Why did you sacrifice my happiness?'

So, what if one day we'll have this conversation? The blame would definitely be on me. He'd try to stay away from me. And he'd rebel against me.

But again I cannot stand with this man. Unless he change. I cannot tolerate with his stupidity anymore. He is the kind of person who'd never be stable. He never liked anything that he owns. Today he broke his Iphone again. Because he wanted to show his anger. He slammed it on the floor. You know what, some people would rather go hungry to save money for Iphone. But he threw it away so many times. Only because he hates the company. It's an Iphone for goodness sake. If i got something that does not belong to me. I would definitely take care of it even more. But he, he's just different. He has his own way to show protest. To rebel. Which in the end would trouble him anyway.

Stupid, stupid, stupid man.