Still Alice

About a very intelligent woman who is suffering alzheimer's from her genes. This movie follows her through her journey on preparing for her future days. She tried to memorize things. Work out. Playing brain games to exercise her brain. Reminders on her phone. But this disease is just cant be cured.

I love this movie because it opened up my eyes on how crazy alzheimers can be. I had a family member who suffered alzheimers. She is already dead. But it was a miserable life for her. She became a laughing stock in every family gatherings. Even her own close family hated and scared of her. They built her a cage. She drank detergent liquid. She played with her own poops. She spoke with reflections in mirror. She did many unthinkable things. And she died in a terrible condition.

I rate this movie 7 out of 10. :)

Baby

I am on a very strict diet. I am doing this out of desperation to get pregnant. You know, one month from now, we'll celebrate our first anniversary. I think it has been 5 months since we're trying to conceive. Every months, waiting for period is like a battle of hopes. But the period came anyway. Even though it's not welcomed!

I really dont know why i didnt get pregnant yet. I think i am healthy enough for a baby. I am just overweight. Not that fat i think. I am fit. I have muscles and exercise. Compared to other people who are completely obese, i think i am a better obese. lol.. My half sister is also fat and she still can get pregnant. My second cousin is fatter than me. She's also pregnant. My period is perfect. I really have no clue of what's going on inside me. But whatever it is we're trying anyway. This time i hope my emotion is stable. Hormones and everything, i hope them to be in perfect condition so the egg and sperm can meet.

Last night i had a fight with my husband. It was not even to be called a fight. But whatever. What i'm trying to say is that i am finally accepting him into my life. Even when we had a fight, i dont have that feelings of wanting a divorce anymore. I have left the past. There is no way i can go back to it. I am looking forward into the future now. Waiting for another big thing which is a baby to change my life.When i look at my husband, i see a person whom i'm gonna spend the rest of my life with. A person who is so influential and the one who has withdrawn me from the darkest pit on earth.

My Dream Life

1. Bright white house.
2. Kids.
3. Nice car.
4. An edible garden.
5. Chicken, ducks and goats.
6. Pond.
7. Swimming pool.
8. BBQ patio.