My Extreme Diet

There you go. Photos of Nicole Richie and Mary-Kate. Who could be more popular than them when it comes to thinspiration? Even i have fallen in love with them as well. Hak!

I'm on a diet. Extreme diet.

Why did i chose an extreme diet? Because i'm a person who's gonna lose spirit easily. As we all know, extreme diet will lessen our weight in a short period of time. So, i'm using this opportunity to lose as much as weight in this diet. You see, i'm pretty excited when it comes to doing something. So, i'm giving myself 5 weeks time to lose as much as i could. Then, i'll be living normal again.

You know, last year, i've been on an extreme diet for a month (i think). I managed to lose 8kg. But then i went home. Went through all the fasting month, raya month and all... plus i was a chef when i was at home. That was the time when i started to fall in love with apple pie. Even now, i can't even have a glimpse of apple. I'd be wanting apple pie so bad!

I hate sweet drinks. If i got myself a canned drink (juice) i'd be adding water until it's totally bland. That's just how much i hate sweet drink. But when it comes to apple pie, i used to bake the sweetest apple pie in the world! But still i ate it like insane! And i think i'm quiet an expert in making apple pies now. Haha... :D

Well, today is my second day of dieting. I've been drinking hot mocha, hot chocolate and milk all day. I can't even barely eat a lot of biscuits cos i have a thin girl wallpaper on my desktop (my thinspiration).

Wel, actually i'm no hungry at all. But it's just this stupid feeling. Wanting food so bad and i'd be gulping saliva like hell when i saw a picture of food. How incredible is that?

But i'm so determined to finish this diet. It's about me, changing my life. I don't wanna be like this anymore.

Simplest Wishes of My Life

here i am. in a single room. with very minimal stuff i've ever had.

i'm alone now. downloading google earth. the internet connection is very good.

as for the stuff. i arrived here with only three bags with me. i only have several clothes, scarves, food that has just been bought, a bowl, two spoons, a plastic fork, a wisk (i don't know when i ever gonna use it. but i bring it along cos i just love looking at it.) printer, two laptops, and bathroom stuffs. that's all i got. i don't have anything fancy. not at all.

urgh... life...

when will it get better? i'm not asking for anything grand. as i've always said. i just want a small simple house. in a cool climate area. a garden full of veggies, fruits and herbs and a lil' farm with ducks and chickens and goats or maybe a couple of cows. and that's all i'm asking for. when will it come true?

Kolej 16 and PJSD

well, it's amazing how people don't have heart.

the story goes like this,

yesterday, i was coming back to upm. i tried to get my room key. but they actually have given my place to someone else. the asked me to fill a form. get a signature of the kolej 16 pengetua. so i did. even though you know, filling a form and get into a bussiness with counter people are the job that i hate the most in my whole life. but, i did!

they said that the pengetua's not there. she's attending a class. i told them, plse give me a room to sleep in. cos i've nowhere else to go. i don't have relatives or friends here. please. but still they said they can't help. they are so immature. trying to look like some kind of profesional workers but actually they are just a bunch of zeros.

they let me, a girl, walked away without a place to spend the night. they don't even mind to ask me where i'm going. they are handling rooms, homes for students. but don't they understand how important it is, a room for a homeless like me?

i went blank. i got nothing in mind. but i know i need to find a way. i took a seat at a bus stop. students were all around me. i wished there would be no one who knows me there. i wait for night. when the world is full of darkness i'd start to walk around the campus to get to the taxi station. but GOD is great. He sent me a taxi at 6 pm. and i safely delivered to a hotel. here i spent the night.

and now i'm going back to the goddamn place. i'll never forget that day.

p/s: kolej 16 and pjsd workers are just a bunch of shit sacks! you hear me?