Sunday, May 17, 2020

depressing ramadan

we're one week away from hari raya. i have a garden. a backyard farm full of animals. but they failed to provide us with money. ducks are laying 9 pcs of eggs a day. we have 100 of them and they're demanding just too much food every single day.

the problem with us is definitely organization. we're a mess. we don't have a chart or timetable. we just go by with nature. but again i can't handle everything. i have so many accounts to administere. instagram - 2 business accounts, 1 personal account. facebook - 2 accounts.

as a mother now i don't really get depressed easily cause i can handle anything with positive thinking. but when it comes to money, you can't help but feel miserably hopeless. i just hope that we'd find a stable second income from m. though i pretty much think it's just a beautiful thinking cause he is really not a business person and he is totally mentally unstable.

is that true? having a garden and touching soil would keep stress at bay? i don't think so. maybe it helps a little bit. but without money it just can't help you in any way.